Melancholy. A feeling of sadness with no obvious cause. This is a very old word, far older than our understanding of the condition known as depression. It was created as a term because they did not understand a medical condition. Now, we know and understand depression, but the word still lives and breathes in our vocabulary.
I am feeling very melancholy today.
RDM, my middle child, has taken RJK to the store. Two stores, actually. One to pick up necessities, and the other to pick me up another vape. I got a text letting me know I should expect watermelon ice to be the flavor of the day soon once my blue raz ice has emptied.
I’m not certain just why I am feeling so melancholy; there’s no real reason to be. My grandkids are healthy, my mom is happy, my wife is feeling better and having a good day with her conditions. Little Domo, as I’m sure you saw, got a new rocket 🚀 for Christmas and is currently on a mission to somewhere with all his friends. My cat is being a cat 🐈 and my chinchilla is being as feisty as ever being the old fart he is.
No, there’s no external reason I should be feeling this way. Maybe it’s an existential sadness; maybe it’s just my existence that’s making me feel like this. Maybe it’s an omen, letting me know that I should be preparing for the worst in the upcoming year. It might even be just a prevailing symptom of nothing, just an overall feeling. One thing is certain, though.
I need to take my meds.
Featured image is of the current status of my vape.